Hey you. I don't really know where to start. We've been through a lot. You started going through real-life when you should have been on the monkey bars. I'm sorry for certain things that happened back then, but I'm so proud of you. You are wonderful, capable, and strong. You are determined. You are loving. You give. You are a chosen Daughter of the King. I wish I could've held you on those scary nights. You only dreamed of the beautiful life you could and would create one day; you've made it a reality. We've made mistakes and we're definitely not perfect, but that's beautiful too. Your story is not about perfection, far from it. Your story is about the beauty within all the brokenness; stability, fullness, generosity, compassion, self-discovery, growth, and more than anything else, love. If there is anything I wish I could have told you back then, I would say, "It's okay to not be okay. Let the people in your life love and help you." Since you were old enough to understand part of where you come from, you have burdened yourself with an unbearable weight to be strong. You never wanted to let any of it show. I'm sorry you felt like you had to do it all on your own. You never did. The truth is, even if I could, maybe I wouldn't tell you. Every moment of your life has brought you to where you are now. If I had to put you through it all over again for this outcome, I would. You deserved better, but I'm proud of what you did with it. I hope where we are today would make you proud too. I love you.
Always,
Marlaina
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